BEST CHRISTMAS EVER!!!!

OK SO THIS WAS THE BEST CHRISTMAS EVER.... NOT ONLY DID I GET TO BE WITH THE LOVE OF MY LIFE, SONNY..... IT MADE THE HOLIDAYS PERFECT.... AND THEN HE ONLY GOT ME THE GREATEST GIFT EVER..... HE GOT ME A FREAKING PINK IPOD NANO.... HE SHOCKED THE HELL OUT OF ME..... I FELT SO BAD THOUGH BECUZ I DIDNT HAVE MONEY TO GET HIM ANYTHING..... BUT I AM GOING TO BUY HIM ONE IT IS HIS LATE CHRISTMAS PRESENT LOL..... BUT YEAH I GUESS ENOUGH GOING ON AND ON ABOUT US LOL..... HERE ARE SOME NEW PICTURES OF ME AND MY SISTER AND MY BROTHER FROM CHRISTMAS DAY AT MY PARENTS LOL..... LOVE YOU ALL

SORRY IT HAS BEEN SO LONG :(

SORRY I HAVE NOT WROTE FOR A LONG TIME I HAVE HAD A LOT OF STUFF GOING ON IN MY LIFE..... I HAVE DONE AND SAID THINGS I SHOULD OF NEVER SAID..... FOR ONE WEEK I LOST THE ONE PERSON I HAVE TRUELY EVER LOVED AND HAVE SEEN A FUTURE WITH..... BUT THE GOOD NEWS IS THAT HE IS A FORGIVING MAN WHO TRUELY LOVES ME AND WANTS TO BE WITH ME..... HE IS THE REASON I HAVE A REASON TO LIVE AND A REASON TO SMILE.... HE IS THE MOST AMAXINGLY LOVING AND SWEET AND CARING MAN I HAVE EVER MET OR BEEN WITH OR HAVE KNOWN..... HE IS JSUT TO PERFECT.... HE TREATS ME BETTER THEN I COULD OF EVER ASKED TO BE TREATED....... HE IS MY BLESSSING AND MY DREAM AND MY ANGEL SENT TO ME FROM HEAVEN...... AS THEY SAY EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON AND THE REASON I WAS SENT HERE TO TEXAS IS BECAUSE I AM MEANT TO BE HERE WITH HIM...... I FEEL SO STUPID FOR LISTENING TO THE PPL WHO WERE BRINGING ME DOWN AND MAKING ME FEEL LIKE I WASNT HAPPY WHEN I WAS..... BUT NEVER AGAIN WILL I LET ANYONE TRY TO CONVIENCE ME THAT I AM NOT HAPPY..... I HAVE NEVER BEEN THIS HAPPY IN MY LIFE..... I HAVE SO MUCH TO BE THANKFUL FOR.... FOR THE LOVE OF A MAN WHO IS SO WONDERFUL THAT THERE ARE NO WORDS TO EXPRESS WHAT HE MEANS TO ME AND HOW HAPPY HE MAKES ME...... HE IS THE ANSWER TO MY PRAYER, AND HE GIVES ME STRENGTH WHEN I AM WEAK...... HE MAKES ME SMILE WHEN I AM SAD.... AND HE ALWAYS MAKES ME SEE THE BRIGHT THINGS OF LIFE WHEN NOTHING SEEMS GOOD IN MY LIFE ANYMORE.... HE REMIDS ME THAT NO MATTER HOW BAD THINGS GET I WILL ALWAYS HAVE HIM AND HIS LOVE.... AND THAT IS ALL I NEED TO KNOW I HAVE A PLACE IN THIS WORLD..... I LOVE YOU SONNY MORE THEN YOU WILL EVER KNOW.... MUAHZ BABY

more new pix cause i was bored

ok so i got really bored and took new pix.... what yall think?

thoughts that have been running through my mind

ok so i have been thinking.... which i know you all are probably thinking not the best thing for me to do lol..... but all i have been able to think about lately is how bad i want a baby that is like the only thing missing in my life..... ever since my miscarriage i have been going nuts.... i feel so empty and there is a huge piece of me missing.... not to mention sonny is already pushing 30 he is going to be turning 27 in 2 months.... i know i am still young and all but i still know i am ready for a baby...... i know i will be a good mom..... i see all these people around me having babies and it just makes me cry that my chance got taken away from me i didnt get the chance to love my baby and kiss or hold my lil one it got taken from me..... i know it has been over a year since it happened so why do i still cry why do i still hurt so bad..... you think over time that the pain would start to go away but it hasnt.... why wont it go away why wont the pain just stop..... but here is the problem sonny is not ready for a child.... i mean i dont know how long i can wait..... i know until i do have a baby i will always have that huge piece of me that died when i lost my child.... i know having another one will not completely heal it but it would mend most of but there will always be a piece of me with my baby off in heaven..... sometimes i wonder if i would be happier in heaven with my baby.... would i feel more complete? would i always smile? what would my life be like if i never lost him or her? will i ever be happy again is my biggest concern? what do i do? i need help :(

just got my nails done

i just got my nails done i was so bored lol and had nothing to do lol... what yall think

things are better

ok so as my previous blog that I have now erased stated I was having problems with myself and my feelings and knowing about what I should do in that situation I was in....

well good news we talked it over last night and things are back to the way that they are suppose to be... I know now that the problem doesnt completely lie on our relationship, but also on the job I am at.... I work for verizon wireless customer care, and I am having a big issue with the people that call in and disrespect me calling me names when I dont do anything wrong... I mean what kind of place do we line in when people are calling eachother a bitch and telling them that they are a piece of shit just for doing their job and doing it right? I mean how disrespectful.... people need to start showing a little more respect to everyone and understand that we are just doing our job the way we have to..... 

So as of now I am looking for a new job because I just cant deal with this anymore its too much and its starting to turn into a issue between me and sonny because I end up taking all my anger out from the job on him.....

well just wanted to let everyone know whats going on now....

Ok so I got new glasses and I am so happy i can finally see lol.... 

As for me and sonny we are still doing well.... like any relationship though we go through some rough times and some arguments but even through all of it I still will never want anyone else cause I know when I with him I feel something stronger then I have ever felt before... the love he gives me is more then I ever thought I could receive, or even deserved, for all I knew this love didnt even exist until he came along.... So no matter what people say and no matter the fights and arguments nothing will ever change the fact that I know that this is what is meant to be..... I cant wait for the day he finally gets to meet all my family.... right now he says he is never going to kansas no matter what but if I have to ill find a way to make him because I want him to meet my family because I already know the majority of his.... I have truely found the meaning of true love and everyone best believe I am not letting go..... not now, not ever..... I love sonny forever and ever.....<3

me and the love of my life of course... <3Sonny<3

OK SO HERE ARE SOME NEW PICTURES OF ME AND THE LOVE OF MY LIFE SONNY... I TOLD YALL HE IS A BIG DORK... BUT DAMN CANT HELP BUT LOVE THIS MAN WITH EVERYTHING I GOTS IN ME.... HE IS THE GREATEST THING TO EVER HAPPEN TO ME.... NOONE IN THIS WORLD CAN EVER COMPARE TO MY SONNY.... HE IS MY PERFECT MATCH.... WELL JUST WANTED TO KEEP YALL UPDATED ON ME AND MY LIFE... HOW YALL LIKE MY HAIRCUT?

brand new hair cut.... and pictures of sonny being a dork haha

here are new pictures of my haircut and some pictures of my dorky boyfriend sonny..... damn i love this boy he is always making me laugh with his goofiness... let me know what yall think:D

Sonny and I

so here are some pictures of me and the love of my life sonny... never in my life have i ever met such a wonderful man.... so loving and caring and just everything that i need in my life..... i love him with all my heart:D